stay alive

It's Christmas

2011-12-25T06:36:00.000-08:00

Christmas.

Jesus came to save us.
What else we can tell about this?

He told me today
'Look at this, it's Christmas.'

dream

2011-11-07T06:45:00.000-08:00

When I struggled for finding meaning of life randomly given to me.
(To be honest, it seemed random to me.)
I was the one desperately eager to find the way away from here.
That might have been either pathetic or just ignorant of myself.

By the time when I started admitting that we (all the people) have same directions.
admitting that being mature is just watching the World without ideal wish,
just watching ourselves the way we are without poetic beauty,

And,
by that time,
you appeared.
There was someone lightened my eyes.

I just want you to know.
I became to understand why we ought to bear it.
I know I might be slightly late to understand.

When I seemed quite stubbornly sure of how I see the World,
you appeared.

And you made me watch something.
something called dream.
You taught me how to dream.
because it is just you showing me how you dream.
because then, I became to know how beautiful your dream is.
because it is just you giving me the dream.

Small guilt

2011-09-13T01:30:00.000-07:00

When I often feel uncomfortable to carry on my life easy like going to work, shopping, having expensive coffee break, enjoying main stream culture, etc, there is certain invisible tendency that tells me off.

This certain tendency is the fact that we live too comfortable.
which means we live too comfortable to think of the neighbors distressed by their unstable lives.
When I was young, I didn't hesitate asking myself why the world is unfair.
I used to disagree whatever the adults decided, whereas I am now hiding myself not doing anything for those who throw their time and voice for achieving their simple rights.
The complex society and system gave me enough excuses for this no-acting bourgeois. (even though I am not actually 'bourgeois'.)

We don't have time and people.
We don't have enough space that enables us to look at isolated people & places.
There are already too important things surrounded our lives.
Family, money, works, religion, friends...

As I grow up, I start to learn called 'virtue' teaching me to involve myself in which matters to me. There is slight ignorance that is accepted reasonable as long as that is non-of my business.

The society tells us how to not to be nosy because we don't have enough power to change what we found wrong.

I still doubt myself of that our resources are limited and already planned to invest within certain domain where we clearly see just right on our own different lives. Since we still live terrible World and we are still quite mean to pay/focus more things on ours not others.

Dorothy Day, her autobiography gave me small consolation that shows the fact that she also had same shame and conflict not only in her mind but also along her entire life.

"The Little Way, That is what we seek, That - contrary to the ethic of personal parking spaces, of the dollar-sign god-is the American way, Dorothy Day kept to that little way, and that is why we honor her.
She understood that if small is not always beautiful, at least it is always human." -Bill Kauffman

I wanna be with u

2011-08-19T06:08:00.001-07:00

this is what I wanna say to u.

Rewind

2011-08-15T04:13:00.000-07:00

Beautiful trip with beautiful friend. It would be impossible to forget the places I've visited. The whole memory is as beautiful as u.

connection

2011-08-07T04:39:00.001-07:00

If you find the most beautiful thing, you would never want to lose it.
It was first time for me to find myself eager to keep it beside me.
I would never forget the image of all about it.

But God, my dear Lord always gives me harshness first so that I open my eyes to know how precious those things.
People and inner conversation which lights a true love.
I believe father will response when he accept whether I deserve such a beautiful being...

Speed killing us

2011-06-20T05:17:00.000-07:00

I know, people wouldn't mind not to feel themselves so much shame if they accidentally spot someone sitting on the street and ask for a penny.
Would I have enough space in my mind that carries myself close to them and makes small chat finding out what else I can make them no more cold?
Neither do you.

None of us have right to tell them off. They are not just ignorant.
It's because of the time.
just a time flowing so fast that we are not able to see right thing.

It doesn't give us enough moment to take care of someone, to breath, to feel same emotion to sympathize neither to turn our head and look back a isolated guy on the street.
seems that the speed takes our sight away from the place under the shade.
what I am afraid of is that sooner or later it would take our soul so that nobody come to feel any guilt even if they watch someone need our time and our hands.
Don't you feel anything strange that nothing occurs you discomfort when you passing people on the street?
Ain't I changing in center of my ego rationalizing myself fitting in it's atmosphere?
Aren't we getting more disabled to see the right World?

Pic_Cassiopeia A

Present

2011-05-08T07:36:00.000-07:00

Thanks Lord.
You gave me everything I need.

Dignity of your Love

2011-04-29T22:30:00.000-07:00

Someone said that gentleness lets you listen to the God and gives you the time to notice what you mislead.
Someone said that kindness lets you sacrifice yourself and leads you realize how life makes someone respected.
Someone said that patience lets you have tolerance to the World and leads you open-minded so that you can have wider sight to see you wouldn't imagine to find before.
Someone said that self-control lets you strengthen yourself to overcome any barriers and has you come back to see basic plan you were about to follow.
Someone said that goodness lets you do righteous and teaches you to build something worth to exist.
Someone said that peace of your mind might be enough to satisfy whom you meet, there is nothing needed to expect, nor to be burdened.

Right..
They said all right things.
But never asked what you want to follow.
They might have showed you things safe to believe.
But never asked what makes you truly be eager to follow.
They never asked what gives you reason to be alive and keeps you want to be ever after.

I dare to say..
There must be love that I wouldn't need to doubt myself
whether it fits vision of one's life or all the life-patterns that are surrounded.

Regardless what has been shown,
I dare to say.
There must be love fulfilling my heart as worth as what I pray for.

Good Morning

2011-03-01T05:04:00.000-08:00

hope you enjoy 2mins 34seconds of comfort.

doing alright

2011-02-28T21:08:00.000-08:00

since when?
since when did we lose confidence of what we believe?
just look.
see whom you meet.
don't look at what you were educated.
there is no answer.
just don't lose your confidence.
you are doing alright.

Dear my friend

2011-01-23T00:37:00.000-08:00

Dear, friend.

I got your late Christmas gift today.
And I got your letter written with your own handwriting.
It is getting familiar reading your letter, in fact, it was somehow a bit difficult to understand your writing. I had to spend a bit more time to recognize each words.
But now, it is no more matter to deal with it.

Sometimes, you became 'Daddy Long Legs' in my life.
You never forget Christmas gift. neither Easter Card.

But still I gave you the feeling like stranger.

Yesterday, I met new friends who now stays in Paris.
She just briefly visited here and gave me late birthday party.
(it was quite nice to have my own birthday party with someone I first met.)
After spent a few hours I realized that I am completely different person and there is nothing in common between her and me.

She doesn't know something I know, and I also don't know anything of that she knows. Only thing that connects us was just feeling 'Intimacy' telling that we quite like each other.

Whenever I meet someone who are obviously different to me and live different lives, I still don't force myself being far apart from them. Being stranger is not always 'awkward thing'.

You said, you think you are somehow doing 'wrong'.
If there is nothing understandable inside of their lives, people generally believe that that's wrong... However, I am sure that there is no one who could tell what right thing is, neither which way is right.
The saddest thing is that they don't know how they are loved and how beautiful being they are. We often believe who we are is as who we are defined by others.(who are supposed to nicely get along with this society.) Nobody has right to tell which one is right person. Nobody knows that which way is right way.
That's why you don't need to make conclusion that you are going wrong.

Nevertheless it seems quite stable and desirable, I hardly see 'Love' in those who already gained reputation and self-confidence of themselves. But these people.. arrogant people.. they kill each other by judging others' lives, measuring, comparing..
I found myself belonging to the small World like 'weak to the wall'..

Nevertheless it seems strange and decadent, I clearly see 'Love' among those who scared of being in front of all. These people might hide themselves from being hurt. Even if majority wouldn't mind who they are, there is clear happiness, sadly weak hearts injured by this World.

Then, often ask to God, where he is.
He wouldn't judge by the way we do.
He wouldn't compare, expect, measure people, not as blind as we always do.
That's why we just carry on our lives not knowing whether it is right or wrong.
The answer belongs to nowhere at least not found in here.
So brought your soul in front of him. Listen to his voice, then you shall find why we still connect and why you walk through this way..

where to rely

2011-01-16T04:38:00.000-08:00

when I suddenly found myself slighlyt suffering from where I belong.
automatically start to seek out who would be the one able to give me comfort.
we would habitually rely on someone whenever inner-discomfort happens.
today, mostly usual..
I realized that being surrounded by someone wouldn't always help.
if I check myself whether I regret what I lost, it is one of the way to figure meaningful connections out.
what if i still have you, would this suffer heal over?
what if you are still around me, would this emptiness lower down, anyhow?
after I hypnotized myself that there wouldn't be that much difference, I try to get myself artificial consolation that makes this reality less suffering with no possibilities to choose any alternatives.

Merry Christmas

2010-12-25T00:32:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas to you all especially those who suffer from any of hunger, repression, poverty, violence and discrimination on the earth.

Pray Jesus's love to them.

Life means..

2010-11-01T06:17:00.001-07:00

'The vision is that we actually believe these things...

You were created to love and be loved. You were meant to live life in relationship with other people, to know and be known. You need to know that your story is important and that you're part of a bigger story. You need to know that your life matters.

We live in a difficult world, a broken world. My friend Byron is very smart - he says that life is hard for most people most of the time. We believe that everyone can relate to pain, that all of us live with questions, and all of us get stuck in moments. You need to know that you're not alone in the places you feel stuck.

We all wake to the human condition. We wake to mystery and beauty but also to tragedy and loss. Millions of people live with problems of pain. Millions of homes are filled with questions – moments and seasons and cycles that come as thieves and aim to stay. We know that pain is very real. It is our privilege to suggest that hope is real, and that help is real.

You need to know that rescue is possible, that freedom is possible, that God is still in the business of redemption. We're seeing it happen. We're seeing lives change as people get the help they need. People sitting across from a counselor for the first time. People stepping into treatment. In desperate moments, people calling a suicide hotline. We know that the first step to recovery is the hardest to take. We want to say here that it's worth it, that your life is worth fighting for, that it's possible to change.'

This is vision description of a non-government organization called 'To Write Love On Her Arms'.
Can you guess what this organization is for?
Yes, it is for sort of preventing suicide. This message tells us that people generally focus on what really important thing is when it comes to desperate to find.
Focus on what your life means. We can surely find true meaning.

Unbearable Guilt

2010-10-31T06:29:00.000-07:00

If there is another world where we are only able to watch what happens but not able to do anything about it, would this kind of barrier hurt anyone?
How much pain would we have felt from it?
Even if we didn't mean to be assailant, the circumstances where we are get us unavoidable responsibilities..
yes, we are all sinner as long as we know that there is unacceptable pain existed.

No matter how we try our best to bring our lives ahead, no matter how we suffer enough for our own lives, the weaker prove that who we are.
Yes, we are not innocent.
There is huge burden on our shoulders.
Perhaps, all of us struggle to ignore so that there are already enough excuses that save us from being alive with only small guilt.

While watching this film, I was completely observer.
No more than that, there is no guilt of just watching it.
As far as we have noticed such horrible tragedy, there is obviously more steps than being terrified ourselves.
Watching it and knowing it wouldn't work at all.

Although I might have tried not to bring myself too into it, it was quite uncomfortable to realize that I was neither too shocked nor shamed.
That's because it was sort of instinct that's trying not to put oneself into clear sin determined by the fact that we -all of us- know their suffer and do nothing for it.

Hope that I got little more energy to find at least whether there is any solution.

-film 'Osama' 2006

Egon Schiele

2010-10-17T06:51:00.000-07:00

"War is over. And I've got to leave."
-Egon Schiele

This is a picture of Egon Schiele after his death in 1918.
It is stunning to see how exactly silmilar his look to his drawings.

sarcasm

2010-10-16T08:27:00.000-07:00

have you ever been sarcastic to someone?
people can understand as well as they see.

sarcasm is proof that I get limited view.
if you blame, you admit to being silly.

Good bye again

2010-10-16T08:09:00.000-07:00

are we ever gonna see each other again?
unless there is certain destiny.

authenticity

2010-09-05T07:22:00.000-07:00

authenticity is interaction.
even if I trust myself that I've been honest and sincere, only person who knows whether it's been true or not is just you whom I've been sincere with.

bitter

2010-08-21T07:25:00.000-07:00

bitter
yes
like coffee taste (and someday I would find it again..and would be more addicted.)

lost
yes
lost my way to head

enough
this is all I had, I can bear
I'd rather choose to start searching
what this means to me

Mission

2010-08-01T05:42:00.001-07:00

watched 'Mission' at the empty theater in Jongro.
the music and the message were still far too touching.

Paint

2010-07-27T06:30:00.000-07:00

when you see a bird in your dream, you are probably eager to fly.

Sensibility

2010-07-21T06:36:00.000-07:00

Painting by Hyejin

This might be last picture
after I stop drawing.
Suddenly realize what I lost.

Beg you

2010-07-21T06:27:00.001-07:00

Keep your sorrow as it is.
I need you when I am cold.

2010-07-01T05:16:00.000-07:00

when you search me, I was hidden somewhere.
by the time when I start to find you, you already give up and disappear.

Starry night

2010-04-25T05:14:00.000-07:00

It is starry night.
The darkness gets closer, the silence covers the ground.
There are two men standing on the silent ground.
One feels empty while the other feels happy.
Then, Both look at the sky when it gets darker.
They can find the star looking down at the sky.
Perhaps they don’t understand what it means.
They don’t know what they find.
Someone might see it beautiful while the other see nothing.
There are always same stars looking down at the sky.
Tomorrow, like a strangers,
they will look at the star looking down at the sky.
They wouldn’t know What it means.
The star will be the same star looking down at the sky.
Today and tomorrow.
The man who saw nothing today would say it’s beautiful
while another who saw it beautiful today might find nothing tomorrow.

marketing professional

2010-03-31T16:52:00.000-07:00

marketing professional is not my final destination.
However, I desperate to have it for the things beyond.
I indeed need it.

2010-03-28T05:55:00.000-07:00

sometimes I wish a big collapsion of the earth.
when the big danger comes, people might be able to notice what is really important in their lives.

Mad Avenue Blues for a big laugh

2010-02-21T22:30:00.000-08:00

the old media died.
the traditional marketing died.
the brands believing that they are working well on traditiaonal media are already dead brands on new media.

Dream

2010-02-15T04:04:00.000-08:00

I dreamed of standing on the stage and singing a song.
It must be great fortune to have talent making and singing beautiful songs.

what are you obsessed with?

2010-02-07T06:34:00.000-08:00

suddenly felt frightened of being judged by someone.
as far as I am eager to take something in the place where I belong, I wouldn't be able to escape from it.

why people are so obsessed with something called 'success'?
although I have been tought & heard so many tips about how to make things success, how to manage successful life, job, work, etc, there is no one who exactly told me what 'success' is. stable life? better job? more money? health? reputation?

No one could convince me to think that 'success' is good thing, actually..
almost everyone whom I met were dragging their lives and trying to reach this called 'successful life', but never figured out what it means to them. never fulfill their satisfaction while they live in the present. always end up with certain amount of lackness in their hearts.. everyone is sick. we can not avoid having serious illness in our hearts as long as each single life is judged by somthing terribly called 'success'. we might have to be manipulated and captured by this illusion that never gonna be taken.
how frightening.. fed up with that.

we never found that we might have been already in the way we should be.
just release your mind and look at your life as it is. then look at your people, family, neighbors, anyone you can find in your lives.
there is no room that has to be filled with 'success' at all. there is always big empty room that has to be filled with 'love'.

look at it. we don't need to take more money, more reputation, neither.
in the work, relationship, any kinds of roles, there is always thing that we should take more seriusly than ever.
whenever we are, whatever we do, whomever we meet, we just need to find and follow our own lives filled with love. that's it.

Love

2010-01-26T09:04:00.000-08:00

do not treat 'Love' with the type of beautiful.
do not decorate 'love' as if love is something that can be taken by someone who deserves it.

no need to decorate it.
no need to compare to something beautiful.

Love.. itself is the simplest thing.

Love is beyond the dimension of relationship.
Love is not something that we can compare of.

It is just great thing.
It is Jesus himself.

slight moment that we often had

2009-12-28T08:16:00.000-08:00

Once you feel that you might have forgotten your dream that you desperate to make, what would you do?

get used to it? or try not to accept the feeling?

Lisa Hannigan

2009-12-09T06:34:00.000-08:00

ADVENT VERSE

2009-12-09T06:16:00.000-08:00

The gift of light
we thankfully take
but not shall it be
alone for our sake.

The more we give light
the one to the other,
it shines and spreads life,
a-growing still farther,
till every spark
by friends set aflame,
till eveery heart the joy shall proclaim;
Not long shall continue
the dark of the year;
The Christ draws near.
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Great Wishes and Thanks to Roman Tarhovisky

2009-10-11T16:49:00.001-07:00

Figured out the origin of this random feeling of emptiness this morning.
Thanks.

forgiveness works

2009-10-03T00:40:00.000-07:00

Does perfect forgiveness indeed exist?
Regardless how strong someone's belief is, there is always scar remaining, scratching their soul.

It is not possible to gain complete recovery unless we truely accept the forgiveness by heart.
Even though we are under various situation that we clearly know where we are, we always head for unpredictable happening next.. accident, fight, illness, misconceive, depredation, panic, violence, injury, etc.
We do not have ability to protect ourselves not to be trapped in such halters.
It just happens to us. we just carry on living and taking it.

Sometimes, a few people might seem to have no reproach to someone or circomstances that hurted and ruined their lives.
They just forget. people can not heal by themselves and keep slacking off the motivation for free themselves from their own anger & pain. too exhausted to think of it.

Nobody force anyone to forgive.
However, we need to learn 'true fortiveness' not for the others but for us.

If we want to get freedom, release what we are grabbing in our mind.
'Forgiveness given on right time' might help..

- random thought after watching the film 'As we forgive'
- photo by [www.flickr.com/photos/melindakerr]

Aung San Suu Kyi

2009-08-25T06:08:00.000-07:00

we often forget the fact that there are still lots of amazing people living around us at the same time in this world. sometimes it is so unbelievable that stories of these people seem to be fiction.
People have fantasy of heros. they have made tones of films and stories which described hansome and glamorous heros who were always supposed to be on the side of justice and save the world... sacrifice themselves sometimes, for that matter.
We can easily find our children watching well made heroism action films such as Transformer2, Superman, etc. And just let them follow/believe random thought that tells such naive children what image of heros is and how to be cool enough to look like fiction heros..

But, have we ever tried to tell them how hard time Aung San Suu Kyi has been spending for freedom of her country, Burma? And how big tragedy is happening at this moment on the other side of the world..
Have we ever tried to convince them to resemble such a brave lady who has spent her entire life still in the prison for justice?

There are still lots of true stories that demand our true sight and true concern which is right view that can distinguish what kind of story and people are true heroim.

About Charity

2009-08-06T16:24:00.000-07:00

Seth Godin is the most persuative person I have ever seen.
I think, he got strictly rational point of view for every single state happening in the world.. Marketing, Communication, Society, etc.
When it comes to the explanation of Charity, I couldn't avoid watching it.
After the video clip finished playing, even though it took only less than 5 minutes, clear view and his own insight made me agree with what he said.

He said that charity doesn't have to be essential. It depands on those who need it. Because not every brand/organization has to make charity plan. It is just depends on their own situation and freewill.

Yes, this 'freewill' is also revealed depends on their own need.

I always insist that the 'Need' doesn't have to be defined as profitable purpose. the 'Need' is just what they want to make, have, achieve.
People and organization that have plan for charity have their own 'Need' which is fare for them to take an action for charity.

However, public commonely see this kind of actions just as 'giving away for no compensation' only with the reason that charity seems not farely measurable for monetary value.

If I put it in extreme perspective..
Human being does not exist for money.
People know it.
Nevertheless, they often see / measure / judge the charity with monetary calculation.

Charity is not 'giving away for nothing'.
It is 'fare deal' for those who need it.

childhood

2009-07-26T07:37:00.000-07:00

we are never able to guess what kind of track certain people have been through.
however, if there is any chance to know the other's own history of their lives, it is not easy not to love them.

today, I still can not help myself to keep my eyes on pictures of your childhood.

time to time

2009-07-12T11:38:00.001-07:00

dear friend, when I wook up, I just found your text message.
but I didn't text back right after that moment.
after a few moment later, I replied a few words.
Although dear, I just wanted to send you more than what you sent.
I just couldn't think proper expression to show you.

Each time I beg your forgiveness for nothing.
I am just here whenever you need me.

self management

2009-07-12T11:35:00.000-07:00

haven't I followed the other's expectation apart from my own will?
Yes. I have. I do. I am at the moment.

deal with it.
or overcome it.

Image Tells

2009-06-30T03:59:00.000-07:00

There is no specific characters acting specific roles.
but we can see how much impact affecting us this clip has.
Image has a power to tell the emotion.

Social Marketing

2009-06-10T18:03:00.001-07:00

Starbucks Launched 'mystarbucksidea.com' in March 2008 after they found out that they needed to make open communication platform for having their consumer engagement. As long as there were already thousands of fans of this global brand, this trial to engage consumer has become successful.
in this open platform, mystarbucksidea.com, they let consumer give their own idea including products, services (ordering, payment, pick up, atmosphere, music, facilities) and other involvements such as social contribution. 6months after launching this site, there were more than 130,000 ideas submitted, and almost 200 ideas were exacuted by Starbucks.
The posted video is one of the idea that has been successfully exacuted after being submited by consumer on the site.
They asked people to give any promotion ideas that they might want Starbucks to try. It was November, 2008. To encourage people to vote, several customers suggested free Starbucks coffee to people who complete vote. after similar ideas were updated on that site, even though there were lots of worries that it might be too burden for Starbucks to give big amount of coffee away, Starbucks bravely tried execution of the idea. After having election date, this trial have got big compliment from their consumers.

The thing that I admire is that there are more than just giving & taking ideas in that site.
1) there is network between consumer: consumers almost sypathized with several ideas submetted so that they became more enthusiastic over leaving their own comments and supporting other's ideas, which could lead the platform more lively active.
2) there is authenticity between consumer and people from starbucks: the people from starbucks(they are more and less like moderators on that sites) deal the ideas with serious attitude and don't hesitate to show their gratitude for the attention. Each of decent ideas can get natural attention and these automatically become to be located on center of feedbacks which get moderators easily accessed to leave their own opinion. (ofcourse, moderator's comments is hightlighted by different color on their text at least. )
3) there is no position differencies among participants: like it is mentioned above, the last and least discrimination of the site is to set their employees as moderators of the sites.
4) The valuable ideas is never ignored: decent ideas either get the feedbacks from participants (there are indeed thousands of people on the platform and more than at least hundreds of people view the ideas.) or seriously considered by Starbucks up untill being executed.

planning to make social marketing platform, we should remind ourselves that there are only slight differencies between successful brand and failed brand. managing successful platform is just like launching new brand. there are clear principles to build up websites, but it is hard to find how to keep the site lively updated by natural participation since we all accept the fact that even if the utilities and functions are completely same, there are always some of the platform getting buried by no people's participation.

2009-06-09T03:09:00.000-07:00

when we grow up, there would be certain situation that we all somehow need to face with difficult choice between keeping on our track to be honest and following what the situation leads us.
the situation that I am talking about could be either to cooperate with immorality or to keep ourselves safe.
I know that there are so many uncertain possibility for us to get ready to refuse as long as we need to regard the situation as it goes.
Imagine.. if I need to say yes.. but what if the answer saying 'yes' wouldn't be right. what if I am supposed to say 'No' on that situation but the answer 'No' make my own profit lost?
there are so many relationship and facts including causes and effects.
only right principle make a decision, no matter how it is profitable for ourselves, we all need to follow what our own sense tells us.

perfect day_Lou Reed

2009-05-21T07:10:00.000-07:00

aging is neither the way to be just older nor to be worn out.
It is getting more attractive.. having deeper thought.. deeper voice.
Lou Reed used to have image of rebellious and be kind of person who instigate young people to get stoned.
Even if don't know much about his life journey, we can clearly see the differencies not only of his voice but also of his whole image(including attitude, facial expression, behavior).
wishing to have such a deeper voice, I would prefer hearing 'Perfect Day' recently recorded.

collaborate

2009-05-21T05:21:00.000-07:00

It would be nice if we can make a plan for such a wonderful collaborative campaign with citizen. Thanks to Sun.

Jonathan Livingston Seagull a story

2009-05-19T08:29:00.000-07:00

For most seagulls, life consists simply of eating and surviving, Flying is just a means of finding food. However, Jonathan Livingston Seagull is no ordinary bird.
For him, flying is life itself. Against the convention of seagull society, he seeks to find a higher purpose and become the best at doing what he loves.

It was a fable about the importance of making the most of our lives, even if our goals run contrary to the norms of our flock, tribe or neighbourhoods.

picture taken in 2007, Whistle, UK

managing a project

2009-05-16T03:52:00.000-07:00

When you lead own project, you firstly need to figure out what you need to achieve from the project. that could be either private achievement or public objective.(which I have already made.)
secondly, you need to know your team members better than any others. they can be called as parts of your body that drive whole project together.
then you are supposted to say 'I trust them' as if you trust yourself.
teamwork and the trust between members are the most significant factor for well-executed project itself.
third, you need to figure out how to manage execution (to decide methods and daily tasks) for complete project.
this is, for me, the hardest part of the process and demading me to sort out every single risks that might possibily be accured.
I still face with several barriers that needs to be decided which way to go.
this enable people to to distinguished who professional manager is.
this proves who has been working for how long.

cheers.

begging forgiveness

2009-05-13T09:05:00.000-07:00

Lord,
You tried to get closer today, I still stupidly have myself gone further and further from you.
having forgiveness, I always realize later how your grace has been given to me.
there is no condition, no measurement, no hesitation for you to embrace me.

Although, I forget every single grace that I take from you over and over again.
I am still growing child never stopping hassling myself with unmeasured greed.

driving through Mexico

2009-05-02T16:43:00.000-07:00

my Lord

2009-04-23T07:49:00.001-07:00

Lord.. can you hear me?

please, manipulate my thought, my words, my acts with your will.
I promised myself not to follow my own idea, my arrogant ego neither...

right judgement?

2009-04-15T08:00:00.000-07:00

what would be the most cause that occurs all the conflicts existing in this would?
one said that it would be human made rules so called 'common sense'.
their own stereotypes, taboo, bias or prejudice cover people's sight openning to the others and widely understanding the others.

not only some of them prejudice, but also we are the same.
we often judge others by our own conclusion which do not have any clue that proves whether it's right or not. everything becomes from our own opinion that we believe and easily call 'common sense'.

mostly, though. those wouldn't be the matters that mainly cause all existing conflicts. it is just half blind people who don't accept differences between themselves and the others.
everything is different.
we must not see any single creature, situation, happening as identical status.
quite often we misunderstand that you are the same as me.
when it comes to making judgement, people always mix their right eyes up. they stupidly believe that all the happenings go through same cycles and head to same direction.

No, they do not. we must accept that we always make judgement, decision based on our own prejudice that can not be concluded right or wrong.
just relative result.

there is always possibility that no matter how much we feel sure about... we might be wrong at some point.

Numbers 23:19

2009-04-10T20:10:00.001-07:00

" God is not a man, that he should lie, nor a son of man, that he should change his mind. Does he speak and then not act? Does he promise and not fulfill?"

about business life

2009-04-09T05:16:00.000-07:00

We are living the life that is way to figure out who we are or way to know our own images. sharing opinion, interacting with colleages and showing the result of taskes in their work spaces. Spending most of the time with the others, we might be defined who we are by the others (importantly).
the scary thing is that how we intend to be seen might not be how we want to be seen. not only working environment is getting open also our daily lives are getting put on the table in front of everyone. there is no more barrier between personal life and work space. the only way to be used to being this situation is just simple. be honest. be authentic in front of everyone.
looking perfect isn't no more strength of business people in this web2.0 world.
accept who we are and don't be afraid of making mistakes.
we have seen by other people. and the way the others see us would be actually becoming who we are. so don't behave like how working people are supposed to do. just do as what you would do both in personal and in official.
ask yourself which would be the real image of yourself.
in open working place there are only you who you think who you are.

to my friend

2009-04-06T07:53:00.001-07:00

I don't go anywhere.
I'm just here.. haven't changed anything of myself.
why am I far from you.
why do you doubt that I might have gone far away from you.
just time. it is just time that makes us nervous..
I am still the same, whatever passed away.
no matter how much time passed, it is just us.
who we are can not be defined by any other options.
it is just ourselves decide what kind of relationship we got.

please. be happy as much as you can.

Philippians 4:13

2009-04-02T05:55:00.000-07:00

I can do all things through christ who strengthens me

human being in one world

2009-03-16T07:55:00.000-07:00

why should we be devided by what we call as religion, races, genders nationality and whatever we have named...

I believe love.
and I believe..
all human kind must have experienced love at least more than once in their lives and must have had 'love'.

I believe that Jesus oneday will get them together and make them prove that there is true love which they already have, as long as we are same human being made by the one.. Jesus who we never be able to guess why he planned and what he plans next...

beyond capability

2009-03-09T06:47:00.000-07:00

have you ever tried to achieve anything beyond the limitation.
how did you feel?
how did you make?
whenever we are eager to achieve something, this kind of certain desire gives us motivation making us beyond limitation..

however, though... I suddenly asked myself what kind of status reffer to be beyond..
we need to accept that we've got limitation on everything around us.
environment, brain, capability, relationship, work task, and just ourselves.
whatever we tried, there is certainly barrier that we can not climb over.
simple is that.
just accept simple statement above.
the things that made us to be so pathetic is that we often forget such simple status which proves who we are and how much we are able to afford, so that people are easily frustrated when they face with such barrier and feel difficulties that is indeed, difficulties...

when we honestly accept such limitation. limitation which is just our states.
then, people would get to know how to thank, how to be humble, and how to manage our capability.
and then they get to know how to sincerely pray...

hopefully, I do get on the path learning how to accept my own limitation,
and how to be sincerely surprised by such miracle happening all the time in my life.

- picture by my beloved friend Roman 'Sopot near to Gdansk...'

2009-02-01T03:33:00.000-08:00

when I feel strange of myself, who could be the one telling me off?
shouting at me and making me awake?

not being eager to meeting anyone, I am still nervous of losing them.
still being afraid of getting back, I am still refusing to accept that they are also changing themselves. Time wouldn't be stopped passing.
fare enough.

Jesus, do you find me different sometimes?

The Fall

2009-01-26T18:35:00.001-08:00

Why should it be tragedy?
We got enough power to make it changed. As long as we dream of it.

collavorative innovation

2009-01-10T02:32:00.000-08:00

collavorative innovation
like-minded individual

As a part of the world, each individual seems to have a specific roles for their life cycles.
they meet friends, sometimes drink alcohol and talk some gossips of celebrities with others.
and if, it might happens,,
we feel empty when we get back home after those gatherings with time-made relationship, so called relationship made by the time we have stepped on.
with such different and so many relationships that are passively made by our own circumstances, I don't doubt that people would at least feel empty of their inner side more than once, still needing someone talk to or share with.
the reason is simple, even if we share the physical things, for instance, time, meals, tasks, etc, we don't see same direction. we don't dream of same achievements.
people just beside of you wouldn't be the one whom you can achive your dream with unless we try to see one direction and try to build one vision together.

after all, when people relise that there are no one who can work with and frustrate with the fact that there is no one whom they can aim to what they plan to achieve, they just do nothing and spend their time to make enough excuses of why they can not dream and try to get it.

And I believe, there are new forms of relationships that could be actively made by ourselves.
we could search people who have similar vision set in their path all over the world.
we could join their activities either producing visual result or satisfying ourselves.
there would be at lease someone who listen to us as long as we try to speak out somewhere.

why are you just spending your time hasseling yourselves and misunderstanding that you would be alone if you follow your own direction? why don't you try to search your partners whom you can listen to and speak with?

each individual have power to affect the others via web even drive so many meaningful activities to run..
activities which used to be regarded too far from us and too difficult to be solved.

Agi and I

2009-01-01T00:46:00.001-08:00

we just met by chance in the middle of Barcelona,

you and I were both alone and trying to get out of long solitude.

Not knowing that much about each other's....... After spending few days together, we were in completely same mood and had same thought at that time.

After the time went on, we are having completely different lives at this moment.

Now you got married and been carrying on your life as a beloved mom in South Africa.

And I am just an employee and sometimes struggle with competitive life.

When would we meet again and get drunk as if we both get back on that time in Barcelona?

sleepless night

2008-12-29T09:52:00.000-08:00

listening your music, I am desperate to sleep tonight.
everything seems no more understanding.
there is only you feeling gloomy.
more or less lonely and painful to get out of your own sickness by yourself.
I am sorry that I couldn't be with you when you needed me.

not being able to begging you, I was only able to accept that I wasn't there when you needed me.

how to be sincere

2008-12-27T05:39:00.000-08:00

we are often eager to have complete solitude.

while I was into it and there was no one disturbing me having my own rest, I can easily remember the people that time I met.

they could be settled down in my memory combinding with such a strong emotion.

they wouldn't have taken me as much as I took them in my mind.

even if so, that was rather fairly fine.

when I see myself selfish to know someone whom I don't care that much.

to be honest, I just feel sick of myself.

then, it's been a few years since I cut that relationship on purpose.

even if that was even more selfish, I couldn't stand being such kind of person.

I might purely wanted to be a person who is sincere to everyone whom she knows.

I still try to have every single express that I show just sincere to them.

at least, people I sometimes, think of, wouldn't be just someone passed away from my head within a few years.

I could say, they are a part of my memory and myself.

photo by Jin 2007.10 Gdansk, Poland

Blowin' in the wind

2008-12-21T07:47:00.000-08:00

how many roads must a man walk down
before you call him a man?
'n' how many seas must a white dove sail
before she sleeps in the sand?
'n' how many times must the cannon balls fly
before they're foverver banned?
the answer, my friend, is blowing in the wind
the answer is blowin' in the wind.

how many times must a man look up
before he can see the sky?
'n' how many ears must one man have
before he can hear people cry?
'n' how many deaths will it take till he knows
that too many people have died?
the answer, my friend, is blowin' in the wind
the answer is blowin' in the wind

how many years can a mountain exist
before it's washed to the sea?
'n' how many years can some people exist
before they're allowed to be free?
'n' how many times can a man turn his head.
pretending he just doesn't see?
the answer, my friend, is blowin' in the wind,
the answer is blowin' in the wind.

-Bob Dylan

getting out of the box

2008-12-20T01:33:00.000-08:00

everything happened has relationship
at the first glance, it might seem just coincident
but all those cycle and happening would be the process to make ourselves get out of the box which has been planed by either ourselves or circumstances around us and control us to be suitable for living here without risk
thankfully, we all have something called emotion which can be.. just emotion as it is.. we can meet, share and cheer each other to break those cages arounds us
that's why we want to leave, meet and plan for next step that is slightly beyond something what we expected
someone who can be completely free from the sketch made by outside of our own,, not purely ourselves
or someone who steps on the capablity showing how we achieve what we want can create their own destiny..........

photo: Tokyo 5.12.2008

could u

2008-12-20T01:32:00.000-08:00

please, forget me
erase me as if I haven't existed
no matter how much i meant
please, remove the memory
let me start from the beginning by myself
let me have myself rising again

honest question about who I am

2008-12-10T01:47:00.000-08:00

I was often confused about my own status. probably.. the class in the society.
no matter how smart my parents were, no matter whether my friends usally bought Louis vuitton with their pocket money, no matter how rich place and how expensive apartment I used to live, no matter how famous high school I attended,

I am originally born to be 'proletarian'. yes. without doubt, I am grown to be 'proletarian'.

sometimes, I misunderstood that I could be just fancy woman who decorates herself with expensive cloths and drinks a glass of wine with rich people in the huge restaurant. In the pictures of my life, there was no labor only the confort and slow breath.

and I thought that I would only hang out with a bunch of famous people, and I expected my father would support me whatever I would like to do. in my dream, I was the center of attention and everybody was envious of what I physically have.

but that was wrong. such a ridiculously funny fantasy I seriously had! even if it was short.

Look at myself clearly, my father was orphan and my mother was born in counry side located in south part of this country(far from the capital). I didn't get how hard they have tried to manage their life, how hard way their lives were. I only saw what they gave me and what they already achieved. the trial they paid was missed.
in fact, if it is normal, people have been building their life from nothing to the property thay have by their own energy, their own lives. Time shows what they achieved, but it doesn't mean that I got something from them. stupid I was.. I needed to realize who I am.
I am just a ordinary person who was born to walk the empty path like my parents did.

So,, I don't need to doubt myself where I am, why I am deadly running. there is no stupid question why I have to walk and run with hard breath on this road.

way to live

2008-12-06T23:30:00.000-08:00

I am gonna be 25 years old.

2008-11-28T18:01:00.000-08:00

they sometimes forget that

it is far more risky to lose their team members than to lose their client.

in the business world, people often do mistakes.

to my hometown where the rest stays

2008-11-15T19:53:00.000-08:00

you wouldn't know how much I miss you and how much I feel guilty whenever I look at your pictures. miss you so much. and love you.

How company looks like

2008-11-14T06:14:00.000-08:00

It's all about people as long as whole company runs by people.
I was inspired by the concept of organization.
Without doubt, there is precisely modern idea that I could find and agree with her.
'the organization is going to have to adapt to individual.'

as soon as I heard, i start to see the possibility that I could carry on working for more than a decade.

the organization where we are working for is going to be no more burden. place where we have to cope with, neither.

Her speech gave me the concept of modern organization in terms of view of social system.
as far as the company runs, this organization have to exist for it's people. every single individual is the element of power running organization in modern era.

Plus, it gave us how to develope ourselves in social responsibility.
the more our career grows, the more we need to respect the people working with us.
Everyone really should make sure that they are respecting their people best and taking enough effort to keep their little tiny single individual condition got well.

My first and last film ever made

2008-11-14T02:27:00.000-08:00

There was slight bit of time that gave me chance to look in my CD case. And I found my movie that I directed for the first time and last time in my life. (so far, it is..)
It was only 10' long and I got so many stories about the time the film was made.
I could sort of flash back on time and enjoy that kind of strange feeling.

Having a short scenario in my head, I was too confident of what I was going to make. I didn't doubt whether I could go wrong way or not. People just see me young girl who only has passion on her work. they didn't give that much attention before the film was made.

there were lots of difficulties..no suitable location, lack of time, no enough device, staff having few experience making films, no actors, no actress and no money for making.

though...strangely I think, I hadn't felt afraid, I hadn't felt that I might need to stop making the film.

It was so clear that I just totally focused on the work. no matter how much time left, how many staffs were going to participate.

so far, there have been only good memory and thank for the fact that we made it even though it's made by amateur movie makers.

after this quite serious project between us, we got admired by students at that time. wouldn't it be so great to imagine being center of attention and got admitted as a talented person for making film? (which was my first desire that I had.)

It still keeps me being aware of who I was.
And remind me how great people that I have met. we were good at team work and cooperating with each other.

without them, I wouldn't have had any chance to see my own movie and feel satisfied.
I wouldn't have any moment that I can hold myself into something I love.

when I see myself little bit losing sort of such a great enthusiastic, to be honest, I wouldn't be able to answer the question ' are you seriously into what you are doing?'. then suddenly eveyrhing sparks out.
The honest answer is just fade out.

look at the answer

2008-11-12T06:54:00.000-08:00

no matter whom I love, I usually draw their features in my mind.
when I walk on the street, take a bus, have a lunch, especially when I am alone, (whenever) I always imagine their behavior, their little habit, tiny little movement, everything..

oneday, I suddently found myself struggling to draw how he looks like.
there was no clue what kind of tool I could use to draw his face, what kind of characteristic he has, what kind of voice he sounds, what kind of eyes I could find from him.

the reason was simple. no clue.
I don't know him enough to draw his picture when I need him.
I don't have enough story of him. that's why I couldn't project his feature when I try to take a long time finding for complete answer of everything I face with.
(I would rather say,, when I need his answer.)
simeple is that.

there is no desperation. no nervousness, no hurry.
just open the bible and see who he is, then he will enable me to draw his face, his voice, his shape, his eyes, his characteristic, his habit, everything of him in my mind.

Russell Howard

2008-10-15T07:30:00.000-07:00

hillarious.

when I saw Russell Howard on TV(I guess it was 'Mock the week'), he was indeed having stunning sense of humor.

someday

2008-10-04T06:36:00.000-07:00

so far, i've been going toward.. not realizing how much I've gone through..
hope oneday I don't need to try to make myself to be higher, further.
there would be certain time that nobody force me to look forward,,
just stop running and look back and make myself lower and be easy on me.
there would be certain rest for me not to worry about how much I need to go, how much I have to get through...

at the end of this long journey, I would be able to stay still and just relax everything around me and wait to be end.

Fantasy Man

2008-09-20T06:59:00.000-07:00

what a sisters!

After 'Once' got award

2008-09-20T06:33:00.001-07:00

still remember what I heard from his interview which was saved in my ipod.
his mother said to him when he was kinda nervous without any reason on the phone speaking with his mum, (course that time he won the Sundence Film Award and got famous )

'when people get everything alright for the first time for their life, they just feel guilty. son, enjoy yourself. '

I wouldn't have that kind of feeling in my life,
not because I wouldn't gonna have that kind of great moment, because I haven't thought that I hadn't had chance to see my life going alright.

that's why he and she deserve to get such a glory.

fair play to them.

what I am confused about

2008-09-16T08:27:00.000-07:00

when it comes to future direction, there is something missing out of my mind.
certainly there is.
we can not fulfill what we really would like to have as long as there is a choice.
if I choose something, there is always another thing that needs to be missed.

don't know how to deal with it.
I might be able to see it in front of me but never know which is right choice for all around me.
when we choose stable life having desirable job and settlement, certain degree of adventure and challenge are tempting at some point.
my status is just like this.

I know that there is right opportunity for me to have myself get higher.
but as soon as I imagine myself to be staying how people expect me to be here, I start to get afraid of this kind of settlement.
awful.. indeed.

I've lived like I would be going to die in a few months, so there is nothing that I regret about in the past.

however, at the moment, it becomes to turn out that I've got to face with many placement that make me stick to stay still here, make me stick to meet same people here.

since I know that there are many possibilities for me to make things different, I am somehow confused to make right decision.

even if I don't need to make it right now, I find myself get annoyed by the role that I need to cope with. I am not sure how it seems like to the others.

whatever.....

Dylan

2008-08-23T09:23:00.000-07:00

pretty strange that I just see it.
I could hear what he said. I was even able to guess how he felt that moment.
when I became to know this musician, I realized there is no musician who represent us at this moment. 21's centuries.
would it be just self satisfaction?
I was somehow glad to find him facing with the reality that he couldn't cope with.

I would yelling at them.
'don't analyze anything about my songs. don't judge about me'
he just said 'I welcome them, with open arms.'

even if it could be just either admiration or sympathy,
I would have tried to ask him to get married with me if I'd been born a bit earlier.

course, know that he wouldn't give any monkey to it, pathetic of me!

sorry dear

2008-07-26T06:28:00.000-07:00

waiting for the answer, I am too nervous to know how you would think about it.
funny thing is that I don't even know what kind of mind made the decision like the result as it happened.

just being sorry, I am always awake of the fact that there is no excuse, no way to prove my mind to you.

solitude

2008-07-18T23:01:00.000-07:00

people misunderstood that they need someone around them to be together.
we wouldn't realize that it could be possible to be completely perfect oneself.

uncertaincy could be the reason why people avoid themselves to be alone.
seaking the way to be perfect oneself, i just would like to take my own time to know the right way.

they wouldn't understand.
or they just put me through ridiculous complaint.
nevertheless
i shall never listen what they think about me.

perfectly isolated, it's sometimes valuable solitude not only for oneself but also for them around me.

stubbern. ain't i?

travel

2008-07-05T23:29:00.000-07:00

finally........

I booked the ticket to Taiwan....

I can leave sooooooooooooooooooooooon.

how tempting

2008-06-15T01:40:00.000-07:00

It's been quite quick since I noticed time going. actually, that was already long times ago.
have got lots of times to be tempted to leave somewhere else.
even though i knew that i wouldn't be the one who felt that way, couldn't stop dreaming.

to each his own cinema

2008-05-30T19:46:00.000-07:00

as long as you have seen 'Kids Return' and have been Kitano's fan, you would be quite enjoying it.

plus, if I have to give one tip for non-japanese speaking, a sentence at the last scene of 'Kids Return' was 'it hasn't been finished yet.'

rolling daily life

2008-05-26T06:52:00.000-07:00

someone supposed me to be pretty optimistic today.
that was unexpected, indeed.
I smiled and smiled in front of them which I didn't even relize.
it might be the truth that who I am could be quite bright and happy enough to be seen as i am.
don't force me to be dark and negative.
even if certain darkness pulled me out, I am quite satisfied with what i do in the work place, at least.
and the fact that I have somewhere to escape and someone whom I miss proves that i should dedicate myself to spend whole time to concentrate on the present.
I could imagine where to go,
I could plan when to go,
I could draw whom I meet,
I could dream what to eat,
and I could wait.

I am still not sure how long it stays
although it's been so, as long as I still have the slight bits of emotion, the time would come oneday and I would be completely released.

how frail

2008-05-17T09:30:00.000-07:00

on the way back from the cinema, I've seen a little boy and his mother in the bus.
he was on her lap and she hugged her little son.
that was just little while making me a bit envious and warm.
but the things that I felt deeply happened few minutes later.
it was tiring of staying in such a cloud bus when it was late.
I fell asleep till the bus reached one station where the boy and his mother had to get off from.
when the bus stoped they had to rush themselve to get off.
I spoted the boy being pulled his arm by his mother. he was sleeping till that moment and had still sleepy face. then, knowing nothing I suddenly felt so sad.
the boy was too sleepy to walk himself on the bus.
trying to open his eyes and sweating, the little boy seemed to be still in his sleep.
too frail to be taken care of.
starring the both till the bus left, I was likely to weep.

apprehension of the truth

2008-05-03T04:21:00.000-07:00

one waits the time passing fast while the other wants the time not to go too fast.
the matter is that they had to spend the time together wanting that moment to be spent opposite way.
wasn't it weird?
they spent everything together but felt so different.
one was nervous of losing the time, on the other hand, the other was fed up with waiting tomorrow comes.

couldn't understand why everything became so unfair.
why the things were not offered for them to fulfill their relaxing time.
even if i wouldn't like to hassel on my weekend.
rather to stand it, though.

stocking in my stomach, something made me just accept everything happened to me.
there is no additional comfort that would make it better at the moment.

thanking but worrying

2008-04-26T18:39:00.001-07:00

yesterday, I recieved a parcel from England.
it was ear rings and a bracelet made my Roman whom I met in Poland.
he is, indeed, a friend.
such a great present reminding me the memory and giving me sort of comfort.

after we said good bye in Poland last October, he went back to England and came back to Poland again.
the same places alone..
and got some small pebbles for me.
the ear rings were made at that time.
imagining how much time he spent for this, how much effort he gave for this,
i was little feeling sorry for not taking him in my mind all the time.

getting used to being how we are, it's easy to regard the precious memory as either a just memory or just special experiences..

but someone who suffers from usual stuff in his/her life including the relationship
someone who is not satisfied with his/her circumstances not having something that he/she could reply on..... must have taken it neither just their part of experience nor special memory..
it must have been a part of their life already.

I don't deserve to be a part of their lives.

that's the conclusion.

try to cope with it

2008-04-22T07:09:00.000-07:00

scared.
when I don't see any reason why I have to manage the life, it's kinda scary.
easy.
it's easy to forget the reason why I live.

easy to ask, but difficult to answer.
without doubt, god have made all but let us find why we have been made, up to ourselves.
that's the most scary and uneasy.

sparked out in my head, i just close my eyes and sleep.
waiting for the answer and the pictures of this ridiculously simple life, i just tried to listen what they order....

life is simple. but difficult to cope with it.

just shout

2008-04-13T08:03:00.000-07:00

don't hide the pain and the darkness behind.
only solution we could have is 'forgiveness'
right
don't forget the 'forgiveness'.
but more painful circumstances would be when someone really seaks the chance to beg forgiveness but they don't let her try...

they just ignore it. they see it with cold eyes and ignorance.
only way she could try is just waiting. waiting.. till the time unable to predict comes.

it's better to get punched and get insulted rather than being regarded as nothing.
we need to cry and swear
we need to shout and attack
then pain is not gonna be stored deep in the heart

after we shout, swear and cry, we can forgive each other
we can get over the sickness being likely to be on our back for the entire our lives.

being excited

2008-03-29T05:45:00.000-07:00

thankfully, the more i work, the more i am interested in what i am supposed to do.
wasn't that clear when I started, it's been making own picture of my life that i can look at.

such a greedy person i am, (would rather call myself passionate)
eager to know everything and trying..
still,,i am kinda afraid to be frustrated, though.

every morning.. when I found myself having my heart beat,
thank that I live and I work.
right. indeed, I could be excited in this life.

happy birthday Hye-Yeong & Junyeon

2008-03-16T08:24:00.000-07:00

how grateful it is that I have someone whom I could miss, I could think of. the fact that u are there whenever I find u proves how lucky i am, how much grace full of in my life i have.

as long as we throw ourselves into the challenging field, don't need to hesitate having confidence about what we do. promising myself making at least one picture of Hye-Yoeng with me on my mobile, I moved the photos on my laptop.

now I understand

2008-03-15T19:20:00.000-07:00

having smile on my face, I realized why it has been on me.
I could feel something like omen whenever I take a step on something changes normal terms of life.
getting to understand why it is given to me, couldn't stop thanking for his sincere concern.
I didn't even know about myself and what I wanted.

always be sorry

2008-03-12T06:28:00.000-07:00

realizing that mood could be manipulated by rational endurance, i could change the way facing with my dearest.
still can not stop her not being sorry, though.
when would i completely be saint?

amy winehouse

2008-03-10T08:49:00.000-07:00

we were in Italy with HANS

2008-03-07T04:38:00.000-08:00

most of the time, we were tempted to have a deep nap.

wouldn't feel lazier.

should have made photo copy of it.

completely relaxing. wasn't it?

remind me her name

2008-03-07T04:12:00.000-08:00

someone said that the dog likes to be cuddled because of the love given by someone cuddling it.

unlike, the cat likes to be cuddled because of it's warm temperature.

wondering whether she still visits the house, i tried to remember clear spell of its name.

hacate, hakait, hecait, hecate...